Do you ever feel like something or someone is missing from your life? I do. Its hard to ignore the pulling, gnawing, wrenching, cavernous feeling where my heart used to be. Its as though my organs have been harvested, or a piece of me amputated, or my whole left side has been sliced clear off. My other half. Something should be there but it isnt. This makes basic tasks so complex. Even just waking up can induce the most unbearable ache, literally wanting something so much that it hurts. Nothing i do feels right anymore. In a way, it reminds me of The Telltale Heart, except its a lack of heartbeat thats driving me crazy.

I spend the majority of my time in another world. Daydreaming, floating, trapped, smothered, half dead. I can see people, i can touch them, hear them......but im not really here. I often wonder what happened to my heart. Where did it go? Does somebody have it? Is it buried somewhere within reach? Most importantly, will i ever get it back?